QUEENLY THOUGHTS.

another bitch bout against technology

putek, what the hell is wrong with friendtest (i know it's pathetic. friendtest ampuch)? i created this quiz and it didn't show. waah. effort eh. sana itinulog ko nalang...

i wanted to write something substantial but i felt i can't right now because, well nothing substantial has happened. no life lesson was learned. nothing good to contribute to society... so wag na. again, effort eh.

i want to have a mcdo party. i want to host a mcdo party for street kids on christmas (well not the day itself naman, family day yon eh)... parang "happy birthday, jesus!" thing... kaya lang wala akong persss.. too bad street kids. sometimes (actually super often eh) the people who want to do something just can't. and those who can don't want to. so ganon talaga ang buhay. di pwedeng masaya. haha. joke lang. i love life. specially mine. naisip ko nga pag nagising ako sa buhay ng kahit sinong tao, kahit na yung pinaka"lucky" pa, maiiyak lang ako dahil pangit. pangit ang buhay niya, di pwede sakin. although i could use some more moolah... eww, i used the word moolah. anyway, back to my dream... i really want this, like a thanksgiving thing... sana magkapers. sa birthday ko nalang siguro. oo tama sa birthday ko nalang.

november na! andaming may birthday! tomorrow i'm going to rej's birthday dinner. gawd, i missed her so much. we haven't seen each other in so long, i probably won't even recongize her right away. actually, i forget people's faces once they fall off my social radar in as little as a month. haha. ang weird ko talaga. then si cara na! bez, magdebut ka, utang na loob. para sayo din yan. siempre samin din. pero mostly sayo. haha. then si ayla na! ayla!!! putek 18 na eh. she asked me to go with her to check out the venue. dapat daw may dancefloor. siguro gusto niya idisplay ang kanyang cheerdancing talent. waaaaaah! gastos to the nth power na naman ito! anyway, it's all worth it. to see the smile on their faces... joke lang. actually ok kasi yung labooms. joke lang ulit.

6 days til up.

Posted by juliecious at 01:08 AM | 3 paid homage

my personality defect

Sociopath You are 85% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 57% Brutal, and 71% Arrogant.

You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, thus making it easier to kill them. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you! To put it less negatively: 1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Hippie. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 79% on Rationality You scored higher than 42% on Extroversion You scored higher than 66% on Brutality You scored higher than 79% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

but i promise i'm a good person.

Posted by juliecious at 02:56 AM | ayos ah.

technology talaga oo

i've written this pretty long entry and... charan!!! naghang eh. ang sakit. anyway, i'm used to it so the pain is tolerable. uulitin ko nalang.

i just watched a cinderella story and surprisingly, i liked it. could it be because of chad michael murray? yep, that should be it. i guess the reason why i liked it so much is because the male protagonist is my dream guy, you know, the perfect kind. it's my own version of SSP: sporty, smart and popular. ayos eh.

what i hated though was the flood of be-yourself messages. the thought still sickens me. i mean come on, if everyone would be "real" (whatever the word means), then we'd all be dead by now. the thing is, people like to think that their real selves are lovable, which most of the time is just an illusion, like many of our tenacious beliefs. we are selfish by nature and i'd imagine our true selves would be really annoying and we're better of pretending. that's what social taboos are for, you know. hay, the lies we live by. it's funny how we still wonder why this world's so messed up.

ok, i should stop philosophizing on the nature of human thought because as we all know, all attempts at this have turned out to be futile, fruitless and cheezy.

anyway, i'm back from cavite!!! the best talaga 4-1! i love them so much. and i was reminded of why i do in the 2 days that we were together. that's short, but we'd take what we could get.Ü patalo nga lang ang aking bagong bisyo ng pagtulog because i had this over-stretched power nap that killed a lot of what could have been bonding time. tsk. on to my achievement: i cook now! yep, i do!!! i fry, and in my opinion, that's hardest to do because you get hurt frying more often than in other methods of cooking. i cooked longganisa and chicken embutido (spelling?). the best eh! but i had lots of oil burns (i don't know what to call them, so there, oil burns.Ü), like battle scars, but they didn't show. so i'd just have to brag about them. then we went swimming. no actually they did, i just pretty much dipped myself and got out. it was soooooo cold. and i mean cold, like i couldn't even move and do laps (not that i could do them decently). i could never forget that experience. yuck oa eh, kala mo tinorture. anyway, may i just say, SUPER KADUPER THE BEST NG PARENTS NI DIANE!!! panalo eh. thank you po ulit!

ok, i'm almost done because i have to sleep through this dysmenorrhea (by the way, half of us had their period while we were in cavite, ang great no?). i just have to mention this thought before i forget it. i had this realization when i had a mean attack of insomnia the dawn before we went to cavite: success is more often for the lucky than for the deserving. putek yan, di pa naman ako lucky. i don't even think i'm deserving most of the time. so what category would i fall under? bahala na. basta i am going to succeed, just wait.

ay wait lang. youth camp na ng yfc immaculat heart of mary parish chapter. it will be at this retreat house in marikina (ang ayos ng place, promise) on november 4-6. if you're interested, send smoke signals. joke. no just contact me or any other yfc ihmp parish member. you do have to be 12-21 though. ok? ok.

Posted by juliecious at 12:25 AM | ayos ah.

i feel awful

i hate my conscience. why do i have to have a big nagging conscience? buti pa yung sa safeguard, mas forgiving yung kunsyensya, tapos kamukha pa niya so parang ang familiar diba? sakin hindi eh. vibes ko yung kunsyensya ko parang napakaalien niya na entity from me, so it's weird. basta, waaah. hay... ito na yung ultimate "sinking feeling in your stomach". patalo talaga.

hayyyy... anyway, cavite na ito bukas!! sasagarin ko na ang kaligayahan... 14 days until my second sem in up... can't wait! (sira ulo). no but honestly, i miss school. i miss having money. i'm dead broke. ang kapal ba ng mukha kong magcavite.

anyway, sana maging masaya naman ako bukas. oo. magiging masya ako bukas. you know what? i realized that happiness (or plain giddiness) is often just a decision. kasi ako, pag nagising ako ng maaga, feeling ko masaya ako, kaya ayon, masya nga ako throughout the day. ang kaso late ako nagising ngayon eh. patalo... anyway, after much time for reflection (naglakad-lakad kami ng aking depressed cousin) ay mukang ok naman ako at ayos talaga ang isaw (ok, ang weird ng shift non). grabe, comfort food!!!

may spaghetti pala sa bahay. panalo talaga mommy ko... i love her so much!!! sabi ko lang magluluto ako ng spaghetti (kasi ayoko na siya ibother sa kanyang kabusyhan) tapos paggising ko, may spaghetti na! grabe, panalo. sinong may ganyang nanay ha? wala, ako lang.

Posted by juliecious at 09:40 PM | ayos ah.

oh happy day

dalawang araw na akong gumigising nang good vibes ako. bakit kaya? ah oo, kasi gumigising na ako nang maaga. di talaga ako made for sleeping in... natutuyot ako sa ganon. anyway...

_ _ _ _ _ and I went to UP yesterday to get our classcards and to talk to my english teacher (naisipan kong tumigil na munasa pagaattach ng mga mura sa mga masasamang tao sa buhay ko. after na ng good vibes.) about the injustice that she did to me. yes, i feel cheated. i hate feeling cheated more than feeling depressed. waaah. anyway, i wasn't able to talk to her because apparently, she wasn't there. anyway, i got my logic classcard (haha. this one will have an entry for itself) and tried to get the one from english, then i learned that i couldn't because: chanchararan!!!

Kailangan ng ID....

WALA AKONG ID.

putek naman o. hassle. and i thought this whole no need for id makes UP cool. di ka na cool, UP. ayoko na. so anyway, _ _ _ _ _ and I decided to make it a Julie and _ _ _ _ _ fun day and went to the alumni center to play duckpin bowling and billiards. putek ang hirap pala! and i cannot get over the guy that rolls the ball back up to us and rearranges the pins. putek manual eh! the best! haha. _ _ _ _ _ said i didn't play bad for a beginner. ayos ah. good vibes talaga ang bowling!!! then we played billiards. in fairness, by the time we were done playing we've gone a long way in terms of "skill" and "strategy". haha. may nalalaman pa kaming placing at patatalontalon ng bola eh! pati "angular" shots. thank God for math17. JOKE LANG.

i realized (yuck, may pa-rea-realization pa akong nalalaman ngayon ah) that UP is a fun place, and not in an i'm-a-nerd-and-i-love-to-study-under-the-macopa-tree kind of way but more in the line of yehehehess!!!-panalo-talaga-ang-murang-entertainment-dito.

_ _ _ _ _, thank you for the fun day! hehe. wala ka talagang special mention eh. effort pa ang magtype ng broken lines ah! hehe. biro lang. KIKAY!!! salamat!

Posted by juliecious at 04:56 PM | ayos ah.