QUEENLY THOUGHTS.

hihi

wala eh. di talaga ako marunong magayos ng html so back to the old and boring stuff na inooffer ng tabulas.

ok, i'm going to give a detailed account of the past happenings in my life. well not so detailed nalang pala. i'd bore myself to death.

andami palang septembers (yikee, parang yung sa sisterhood) at andaming nagdedebut. uhmm, c'mon naman sa kagastusan. pambili ng damit (dahil mapride ako at ayoko magdress repeat kahit na nagawa ko na siya finally) at panregalo. pero fun! fun!

my favorite tito went back home, what, 2 weeks ago? yeah, i guess. but i didn't get to see his nephew, the very hot, very charming CHARLES (che-cheng!). my cousin and i have been pining for charles for 1 1/2 years. my cousin even told everyone from her last school that she won't get herself a boyfriend if it isn't charles anyway. haha. i know, we're weird like that. you could just imagine our reaction when we heard the news that we've been fearing since we last saw him - he's got himself an effing girlfriend. tugsh. parang bulldozer to the heart. naks. may paheart heart pa ako ngayon ah.

ok, UP's turning out fine... getting better naman kahit pano. no, maybe i'm getting better at adapting to this new (albeit polluted) environment. well, things can't change for me. i'd have to change to keep my sanity intact (and trust me, this is getting to be quite a chore on my part). which reminds me, i'm gonna do a bit of bitching. some people are just so friggin' self-centered. uhmm, bez, di ka naman prinsesa (and even if you are, you'd make a sucky one, not unlike those i very frequently bitch about too) at most of the time, there really isn't anything wrong with the person you're antagonizing, it's you who's got her morals all wrong. tsk.

ang sad. there's this guy i always see in school and he's always alone. oh well, maybe he enjoys his peaceful moments. he's got lots of that though.

bad vibes talaga ang sun. uhmm, di ka ba reliable. out of 20 messages i try to send, only 1 actually gets through. ugh. so useless na rin ang unlimited kasi di ka naman makaka mass-texting.

la universidad está comenzando a sentirse como la universidad (usted sabe, el tipo gente confía el suicidio para). tengo que memorizar el valor de 30 minutos del español, estudio para mi 5to examen de la matemáticas (con una sensación del foreboding, ' causa que sé que aspiraría en ella de todos modos), estudio para mis finales de la lógica que harían para arriba el 50% de mi grado (no sé estudiaría sin embargo ' me causo no tengo el libro o aún no tuve gusto de un doblez de la esquina de su página). el oh y yo tenemos que acabar este papel inglés que me sienta resultaría ser un insulto a mi vida de la educación whoohoo. del miriam sea bueno de su manera extraña, extraña.

pero me siento bien, porque he adaptado mas. deseo aprobar mis examenes. Ojala!

Posted by juliecious at 01:55 PM | ayos ah.

Pharisee

ok, some people are like pharisees. and what's ironic is that they're the ones who've been locked up in catholic schools and taught that the pharisees were, well, for the lack of a better term, evil.

this is the life of your everyday pharisee. let's call him Damaso Pilato, the quintessential religious, the perfect embodiment of the pride and joy of an 1880's couple. he is an altar boy, he sings, albeit poorly with the church choir, he is always eager to help out in church activities... well actually, only those that would get his ass is glorfied and that would keep his hands impeccably clean. he leaves all the dirty work to the miserable little kids, those whom he had convinced that they are sinful and that the gates of hell would open wider than it has ever before to welcome them when they die, probably of a strange disease that people get as punishment for kissing a member of the opposite sex. Damaso Pilato walks off, feeling pleased with himself, as he has done the work of God, and punished His enemies.

Damaso would then attend his "Army/Fighters/Soldiers/whateverelsetheycallit of God" taking the meaning of the name quite as literally as would a 5 year old kid raised by a 10 year old yaya. yes, they would often call themselves young leaders, or servants if they want a greater effect for more power over other people. but who could blame them? they are, afterall, mere teenagers who need acknowledgement to know that their limbs actually exist.

Damaso grows up to become a speaker, the voice of God as he would put it, praising his kind and condemning those who dare break off from the rules he has set, which of course, were handed down by Damaso the -10th. he would impose tithe on his people (yes, he loved the sound of that, "his people"), fully convinced that they are morally obliged to feed him for the all the work he has done.

Damaso's life would be marked by countless fights, those against the immorality of just about anyone who was naive enough to stray on his path. he loves that word immoral and never misses the chance to use it. "How dare you hold hands inside the Church beyond the context of the Our Father? How immoral!"; "How dare you drink alcohol? How immoral!"; "Pedro, how dare you have a crush on Miguel? How immoral!"; "How dare you talk unkindly of me? How immoral!"; "How dare you answer these rhetorical questions i toss you? How immoral!"

Damaso, in spite of himself, would of course be present at charity events, flashing his biggest smile to anyone who would care to look at him. He would shake hands with little kids, kiss the babies, hug the wives, laugh with the husbands. then he would wash his hands, brush his teeth, change his clothes, confess his sins.

I did not write this to poke fun at religious people. This is for those whose nerve was touched by this entry.

Posted by juliecious at 04:09 PM | 7 paid homage

bull dong.

putek, i think i'm gonna fail math. of all subjects, math pa talaga. not spanish, not soc sci, but math.

it's just that math was kind of my subject, but now it's definitely not. shit. i can't believe i got a __. damn you, tangent! damn you!

anyway, on to better news... wait, i can't think of any. haha. no, i don't mean to be so negative, it's just that... well math. haha. no explanation needed. i'm so screwed. in math. oh God, in math. what will my dad say? ok, before you think i'm this poor little kid who's pressured into doing good in school, i'm so far from that. it's just that my dad's really good in math and i like competition.

ugh. ok, i'm not gonna talk about it.

anyway, we were supposed to go to tagaytay pero di pwede si ayen (haha sinisi talaga eh) kaya di nalang, so we just had dinner at eastwood... wait, what resto was it... pasto? yeah, i guess that's it. so i ordered a pizza, sabi kasi 12" siya, and i was really really hungry. then we saw this other table, dinadalan sila ng pizza na super kaduper liit. so we thought it's like a business strategy na sabi nila 12" pero yun pala yung circumference and not the diameter (see how math's working here?) so kinabahan ako. akala ko nakasulit na kasi 195 lang siya for a whole pizza. tapos thankfully, 12" nga yung diameter at malakilaki siya. and guess what, i finished the entire pizza by myself. ay di pala, kasi kumuha si jb ng isa. but still, it's a friggin' 12" pizza, all to myself. damn, i must really be depressed. (now see how math's working here, again?)

by the way, just a bit of public service, never ever get a female prof. they're all psycho. uh-huh. they have all this excess emotional baggage that they let out in school.

Posted by juliecious at 09:20 PM | 2 paid homage

ayos na ako ulit

ok, i'm finally over the whole math thing.

so i'm ready to blog again! ayipee! ok, UP crs is super sucky. i've run out of decent subjects and i might just have to take another english class. joke lang! hahahahaha. never again, my friends, never again. i am fully satisfied with my english, so thanks, but no thanks to UP "english".

ok, i finally appreciate bamboo. i like their song, FU. it actually means something. kinda unusual for today's pinoy boybands. by the way, if i haven't said it enough, i hate hale. super.

how weird is it that i almost always begin my sentences/blog entries/messages with the word, "ok"? well, not so weird actually. gusto ko lang pansinin.

grabe, i have to go to school pa on monday because i have to pass my english paper. i actually don't really know for sure if monday's the deadline, but just to be safe.. with these profs, you never know...

then i have 2 more exams lined up. one i don't care about, another i really have to ace. oh c'mon. ilang beses na akong nasasalang sa mga ganitong pagkakataon?

next sem, i am going to have fun. i am going to have fun and get good grades. i shall revive my dying social life.

now, how incoherent was that?

Posted by juliecious at 11:49 PM | ayos ah.

whoohoo

haha. lintik kang english ka. uh-huh. tapos na ako, finally. wala na. i'm done with you forever.

i'm soooooo glad this is over.

by the way, i've finally (no really) gotten over the whole math disaster. i seized what's left of my math skills and computed for an entire minute. and then the news came.... i just might pass math 17. ooh thank God. no more math 34! (yeah, finally got the joke).

but that doesn't mean i'm gonna stop looking for math quotes and math jokes and math anecdotes to sicken any math major. sorry katan, i love and miss you, but you're not here so i'm gonna bash your beloved.

ok, sembreak (no the real one, thank you) is just 3 more UP days (they tend to be very long, by the way) away and i'm super excited for what's slated for it. well, actually there's just one that's pretty much decided on. we're going to baguio with my blockmates and a couple of peste people. yey! eh ang kaso wala ata akong pera. haha. i didn't get to save much in spite of going to school everyday. shit. anyway, money's not much of problem if i could starve myself to sleep. which i could actually do. dalawang araw akong isang beses sa isang araw lang kumain. i don't know what's wrong with me. parang wala akong vibes kainin kundi spaghetti (which we don't have right now, thus the whole hunger strike thing). anyway, sana matuloy (and more importantly, sana matuloy si ayen. naks oo, special mention ka dito dong).

anyway, gusto rin naming magtagaytay. haha. ang kapal ko bang magsulat ng ganito eh di naman namin place yung sestayan. haha. funneh. so here's the master plan: we're gonna invite people to go to tagaytay THEN we're going to ask pal if he wants to go to tagaytay. o diba, musta naman ang pagiging baligtad ng proseso diba. basta, sana everything would work out. i want to have fun this sembreak before i face another sem there (yuck, di ko ba masabi kung san).

ay wait. napagisipan ko lang nung nagusap kami ni dimples kanina: wala eh. wala talaga akong love life. and so what? i'm a lot happier than most people. i guess if it comes, it comes (yuck, it talaga eh) and i'd be happy to have it. but if it doesn't... well i'm sure it will so i guess we'll never know. haha. in denial ka ba. teka, Lord pwedeng magwish? pwede ok yung context? hindi siya socially awkward in any way? i tend to get into those situations... blah.

shoutouts:

4-1! putakte, super kaduper duper duper miss ko na kayo. let's go somewhere. batangas? promise, i won't tell my parents about the whole npa thing na. haha. i wanna have fun on the beach (yeah, that's a song)

nwebeh! waaah. kahit na hindi niyo ito mababasa. super super super super miss ko na kayo. let's go somewhere. tagaytay? haha. em, i soooo love your place. or let's just drink at jack's loft. whichever way would work perfectly. i love you!!!!!

niggaG!!! hoi! mga hayop kayo di na tayo nagkikita ah!!! pucha, uhm, cara? where the fuck are you? medyo lang nung ano pa tayo nagkita... uhm, see, ni di ko na maalala??? alis nga tayo! ano san niyo gusto? kahit san! basta labooms nalang ito ayos na! i love you!!!!!!

peste! tapos na! whoohoo! well actually di pa, pero for now, we could enjoy the little sembreak we've got left. ano san tayo?

n11! baguio na ba ito? mico! tuloy ba?

lau, cha, dimples and shai. uh-huh. itutuloy natin yon whatever happens. di pwedeng hindi. basta ha...

Posted by juliecious at 11:34 AM | ayos ah.

definitely back

i've gone back to my two per day blog quota. i'm getting hooked on talking about myself again! yey! i'm back!

grabe, i need to take a crap. ok that's not the best thing to say in my big comeback. waaaahhhh

anyway, thanks to dino for fixing my tagboard. i could really see this blog cleaning up well after my little html disaster... with a little help from my more html savvy friends.

ayoko na pala. sige God bless!

Posted by juliecious at 01:34 AM | ayos ah.

happy

i think God made me see what i just saw to show me that i am great and perfect. uh-huh. perfect for anyone who cares. and i love that. yep yep!

I love you Lord! thank you for making me who i am and thank you for giving me the people who love me. oo madami sila (haha insecure ka ba)

Posted by juliecious at 02:11 AM | ayos ah.

kailangan natin ng proteksyong liveraide!

takte. ang funny talaga nong commercial na yon. whoohoo.

anyway, anlapit na ng sembreak ko! last day ko na bukas! yehehesss!!! can't wait to live, you know, like a normal person, and not like a bedamned "iska" who gets to be the target of psychotic profs (or those with sickly kids... ok inside joke ko na ito sa sarili ko)

just one more exam... logic logic logic... how logical is it that i'm ending my sem with the one subject i think would actually be useful (oo jb, i defy you)? yep. logic. di ko na batayan ng aking kapasidad sa pagiisip ang matematika sapagkat ayokong maging isang sawing nilalang na lulurayluray sa may elliptical road. well, that isn't exactly a faint possibility with logic since my prof has made it his life's mission to give really difficult exams (he has green hair you know... ok walang connection. just had to mention it.)

waaaaah... wala pa akong susuotin sa debut ng aking dear, dear friend na si Anna Achacoso (i miss you, promise.Ü) eh andon si raef! takte, si raef raef raef! yep, same raef who is neurotically happy with his relationship with his girlfriend. haha. ang fun magkacrush sa may girlfriend sa totoo lang. 'cause you aren't expecting anything (heck, we don't even know each other yet, but i swear that's gonna change) and nobody's taking it seriously anyway so you can just go on and psychobabble.

may boyfriend na ang aking kaibigan. putek, once again, naunahan ako ulit! haha. but like i always say (and i'm starting to believe it), i really want him to be perfect so i'll wait. or look. haha. but this would be another blog entry in itself. (ui o, in itself. how ******ish)

ayoko na magblog, wala naman akong nacocontribute na maganda sa society. and i have to sleep kasi medyo lang 2 hours palang ang tulog ko from the day before yesterday morning pa. funny, my waking hours aren't even productive. what a waste.

Posted by juliecious at 01:01 AM | ayos ah.

freedom

freedom from casaa food

freedom from math 17 (gawd i hope so)

freedom from english 1

freedom from pollution

freedom from slashers/pickpockets

freedom from papers

freedom from ridiculously hard exams

freedom from ridiculous profs

freedom from ridiculous ***** classmates

freedom from rallies

freedom from insecurities (di ko na naiisip. yehey!)

freedom from you (haha. the eternal "dramatic" ending.)


anyway, i'm free. well, for now. i don't want to talk about school/school/school. grabe ah, super tautologous na niyan, wala ka nang logic pag di mo pa magets.

speaking of logic.

ang hirap ng exam. as in super. walang logic. unreasonable. waaah.
and i wanted to take philo 12... sira ulo.

ay wala akong logic. sinabi ko na ngang don't talk about school eh.

as i might have repeatedly mentioned, i am planning to really, really enjoy this sembreak and so far, the next few days are covered:

Friday: tutuban and bonding with fac4
Saturday: debut ni acha (hihihihihi. can't wait!)
Sunday: church.
Monday: bonding with lau, cha, shai (kahit di pa niya alam), dimples (kahit di ko pa siya natetext) and iris (kahit baka pumunta siyang batangas)
Tuesday: do something with peste
Wednesday: ililibre ako ni dino at ayla (kahit di pa nila alam)

i don't want to plan too far ahead. ang saya! sembreak na!

onga pala. plano namin ni ayen na magluneta. o di ba. the best. sana nga matuloy!!! gusto ko talaga magluneta. tapos itong si ayen gusto mag national museum. kailangan ba ng id don? hehe. dumbass.

Posted by juliecious at 11:34 PM | 2 paid homage

matatapos na

ang linggong ito. navibes kong hindi siya naging mabait sa akin, or nagkacarino brutal lang siya at ginawa niya ito sa akin para ako'y matuto ng isang valuable lesson. alam ko na yon and i'm thankful. now can we stop with the torturing?

wow. ibang iba talaga sa maynila. ang dumi. haha. oh well, if it works for them and if it's adaptive (although i don't see how, i'm just trying to keep an open mind), fine by me. malala eh, i didn't see it through car windows, sa streets talaga ako. literal na naglalakad ako kasama ng basura. amputek (literally and as an expression).

anyway, kaya ko pinagsususulat yang mga yan ay dahil nag tutuban ako kanina. well, di ko naman first time no, kaya lang first time ko lang masweepan ng dumi. however, first time ko nga na makapuntang katipunan galing tutuban ng 8:00 ng gabi mag-isa! oo! mag-isa nga! what an achievement! i'm soooo proud of myself. college na talaga ako.

nagkita kami ni cara! kaya lang naudlot ang aming paglalabooms dahil wala na kaming pera pareho! musta naman ang aming plan na maglabooms sa katipunan, nauwi sa sundae cone sa mcdo. the best eh! sooooobrang miss ko na si cara!!!!

isa pang sobrang miss ko na nagparamdam ay si rej!!! shit, soooobrang miss ko na siya. uhmmm musta naman, grade 6 pa ata huling pagkikita namin! bez, nakatapos na ako sa aking secondary education, di pa kami nagkikita! i miss you rej! debut mo na! bad vibes nga lang kasi when she called i wasn't home. shit. call me!!!

hay. old friends, new friends. wala lang. old friends new friends lang. wala talagang point.

Posted by juliecious at 02:02 AM | ayos ah.

FUCK CRS

shiiiit. sabi ko pa sobrang happy ko dahil isa lang yung GE na di ko nakuha. putakte... sobrang pangit pala naman nung schedule na nakuha ko!!! tangena. i swear. i haaate CRS!!!

the one thing i was really, really, really trying to avoid happened: I got preenlisted for subjects that start at 7:00am. are you fucking kidding me? chem at 7:00am? i love myself too much to have another round of fucked-up-subject-at-super-early-in-the-morning (math 17 disaster) i just can't make myself go to school on time, even if i do wake up earlier than i have to. is that too effing complicated for you to understand? shit ka CRS. shit ka talaga.

waaaaaah!!! gawd. i hate chem. but something's worse than chem, it's chem at 7am (if you read that aloud, it would actually rhyme, cool no?) Lord, please don't let that evil, evil CRS ruin my life for me. i'm doing a pretty good job without its help, thank you.

oh no... what am i gonna do?

btw, my parents found out about my 44-42 math tandem and instead of going psychotic on me, they gave me looks of pity. that's actually a lot worse for my unbelievably bloated ego, but as long as that would keep me "un-grounded", i'm good.

i'm not gonna mess up the second sem. i'm not. i'm not. slap me if i start doing it again.

Posted by juliecious at 02:28 AM | ayos ah.

FUCK CRS again

grabe a, namumuro na sakin yang linchak na crs na yan...

i'm here at netopia dahil inaantay kong matapos ang pinsan ko ss kanyang pafacial at andito na pala siya by the way (musta naman ang biglang singit. i swear lalake talaga ako)... iba talaga ang atmosphere ng mga internet shops, ang professional at ang fun (yung parang may war talaga sa place). at off topic na naman ako. putek.

anyway, tinatry kong magpreenlist (for the fucking nth time) at naayos ko na sana siya (i think) but then again, ang malaking malaking hadlang na katangahan ng linchak na sistema nitong low life crs na ito ay hindi hinayaang matahimik na finally ang buhay ko sana (at ang pangit ng sentence structure non). grabe, ngayon pa niya napiling magkaroon ng downtime. ayos ah.

tsk, tsk, tsk. anyway, so far naman ay naeenjoy ko ang aking sembreak dahil di pa ako natitigil sa bahay para magmope sa kamiserablehan ng aking academic life (oo, grade conscious na ako ngayon, not to mention maraming pimples. ayos talaga ang UP!). gawd, ginamit ko yung term na "academic life". how sad.

anyway, icocontinue ko na ang aking battle with crs

Posted by juliecious at 07:19 PM | ayos ah.

FUCK (part 3)

di na ito crs. si marchadesch na ang bago kong kalaban. what's with me and english teachers???

wait lang... i just found out something. ang sakit ah. in fairness, nasaktan ako.

hay. pano ba yan. mukang ako at ang tv na ito buong araw bukas. i need time for self-pity.

pray for me. i feel awful.

ay teka di ko pala naappreciate ang good news!!!!!!!!

2.5 ako sa math! yessss!! ok, i know that's low, pero that's a hell lot higher than what i was expecting. yahoo!

Posted by juliecious at 01:14 AM | ayos ah.

no more fucking around

di na ako ulit magagalit nang dahil sa walang kwentang bagay/tao/hayop/whateverelse. they don't deserve my scarce emotion. it's a luxury, no point wasting it.

anyway highway (shit ang sarap talagang magrhyme!) ok na ako... i mean, i feel sick (literally) dahil puro tulog lang ginagawa ko at nahihilo at nasusuka at naduduling at najejebs na ako... pero ayos, ayos. ok!

i'm having a fun sembreak and i'm sooo glad i have friends whom i can enjoy it with (you see, i've realized that other people don't have the fortune of having friends and i'm glad i'm not one of them). i've been spending lots of time with my old friends and i feel super happy that we haven't lost that vibe and it's still the bond that sticks us together. ayos! ang sarap ng may true friends.

we're going to cavite! can't wait. but unlike before, when i would've wanted to burn my skin into a golden crisp, this time i would opt for maximum sunscreen coverage and protection. i don't need the vacation sun, i have the all-year-round UP sun to toast me. and you know what? that doesn't feel so bad anymore. i'm starting to really like my school. ayos!

hay ang saya magbakasyon. napakaayos!!! shit, san ko ba nakuha tong ayos na 'to? ilang taon nang pinapalabas yan sa mtv di ko naman napipick up? sinong nagsabi? sinooooo???

promise next time i'm going to write about something that would do this world some good. parang ang stupid na ng mga blog entries ko eh. ewan.

Posted by juliecious at 11:26 PM | ayos ah.

oh happy day

dalawang araw na akong gumigising nang good vibes ako. bakit kaya? ah oo, kasi gumigising na ako nang maaga. di talaga ako made for sleeping in... natutuyot ako sa ganon. anyway...

_ _ _ _ _ and I went to UP yesterday to get our classcards and to talk to my english teacher (naisipan kong tumigil na munasa pagaattach ng mga mura sa mga masasamang tao sa buhay ko. after na ng good vibes.) about the injustice that she did to me. yes, i feel cheated. i hate feeling cheated more than feeling depressed. waaah. anyway, i wasn't able to talk to her because apparently, she wasn't there. anyway, i got my logic classcard (haha. this one will have an entry for itself) and tried to get the one from english, then i learned that i couldn't because: chanchararan!!!

Kailangan ng ID....

WALA AKONG ID.

putek naman o. hassle. and i thought this whole no need for id makes UP cool. di ka na cool, UP. ayoko na. so anyway, _ _ _ _ _ and I decided to make it a Julie and _ _ _ _ _ fun day and went to the alumni center to play duckpin bowling and billiards. putek ang hirap pala! and i cannot get over the guy that rolls the ball back up to us and rearranges the pins. putek manual eh! the best! haha. _ _ _ _ _ said i didn't play bad for a beginner. ayos ah. good vibes talaga ang bowling!!! then we played billiards. in fairness, by the time we were done playing we've gone a long way in terms of "skill" and "strategy". haha. may nalalaman pa kaming placing at patatalontalon ng bola eh! pati "angular" shots. thank God for math17. JOKE LANG.

i realized (yuck, may pa-rea-realization pa akong nalalaman ngayon ah) that UP is a fun place, and not in an i'm-a-nerd-and-i-love-to-study-under-the-macopa-tree kind of way but more in the line of yehehehess!!!-panalo-talaga-ang-murang-entertainment-dito.

_ _ _ _ _, thank you for the fun day! hehe. wala ka talagang special mention eh. effort pa ang magtype ng broken lines ah! hehe. biro lang. KIKAY!!! salamat!

Posted by juliecious at 04:56 PM | ayos ah.

i feel awful

i hate my conscience. why do i have to have a big nagging conscience? buti pa yung sa safeguard, mas forgiving yung kunsyensya, tapos kamukha pa niya so parang ang familiar diba? sakin hindi eh. vibes ko yung kunsyensya ko parang napakaalien niya na entity from me, so it's weird. basta, waaah. hay... ito na yung ultimate "sinking feeling in your stomach". patalo talaga.

hayyyy... anyway, cavite na ito bukas!! sasagarin ko na ang kaligayahan... 14 days until my second sem in up... can't wait! (sira ulo). no but honestly, i miss school. i miss having money. i'm dead broke. ang kapal ba ng mukha kong magcavite.

anyway, sana maging masaya naman ako bukas. oo. magiging masya ako bukas. you know what? i realized that happiness (or plain giddiness) is often just a decision. kasi ako, pag nagising ako ng maaga, feeling ko masaya ako, kaya ayon, masya nga ako throughout the day. ang kaso late ako nagising ngayon eh. patalo... anyway, after much time for reflection (naglakad-lakad kami ng aking depressed cousin) ay mukang ok naman ako at ayos talaga ang isaw (ok, ang weird ng shift non). grabe, comfort food!!!

may spaghetti pala sa bahay. panalo talaga mommy ko... i love her so much!!! sabi ko lang magluluto ako ng spaghetti (kasi ayoko na siya ibother sa kanyang kabusyhan) tapos paggising ko, may spaghetti na! grabe, panalo. sinong may ganyang nanay ha? wala, ako lang.

Posted by juliecious at 09:40 PM | ayos ah.

technology talaga oo

i've written this pretty long entry and... charan!!! naghang eh. ang sakit. anyway, i'm used to it so the pain is tolerable. uulitin ko nalang.

i just watched a cinderella story and surprisingly, i liked it. could it be because of chad michael murray? yep, that should be it. i guess the reason why i liked it so much is because the male protagonist is my dream guy, you know, the perfect kind. it's my own version of SSP: sporty, smart and popular. ayos eh.

what i hated though was the flood of be-yourself messages. the thought still sickens me. i mean come on, if everyone would be "real" (whatever the word means), then we'd all be dead by now. the thing is, people like to think that their real selves are lovable, which most of the time is just an illusion, like many of our tenacious beliefs. we are selfish by nature and i'd imagine our true selves would be really annoying and we're better of pretending. that's what social taboos are for, you know. hay, the lies we live by. it's funny how we still wonder why this world's so messed up.

ok, i should stop philosophizing on the nature of human thought because as we all know, all attempts at this have turned out to be futile, fruitless and cheezy.

anyway, i'm back from cavite!!! the best talaga 4-1! i love them so much. and i was reminded of why i do in the 2 days that we were together. that's short, but we'd take what we could get.Ü patalo nga lang ang aking bagong bisyo ng pagtulog because i had this over-stretched power nap that killed a lot of what could have been bonding time. tsk. on to my achievement: i cook now! yep, i do!!! i fry, and in my opinion, that's hardest to do because you get hurt frying more often than in other methods of cooking. i cooked longganisa and chicken embutido (spelling?). the best eh! but i had lots of oil burns (i don't know what to call them, so there, oil burns.Ü), like battle scars, but they didn't show. so i'd just have to brag about them. then we went swimming. no actually they did, i just pretty much dipped myself and got out. it was soooooo cold. and i mean cold, like i couldn't even move and do laps (not that i could do them decently). i could never forget that experience. yuck oa eh, kala mo tinorture. anyway, may i just say, SUPER KADUPER THE BEST NG PARENTS NI DIANE!!! panalo eh. thank you po ulit!

ok, i'm almost done because i have to sleep through this dysmenorrhea (by the way, half of us had their period while we were in cavite, ang great no?). i just have to mention this thought before i forget it. i had this realization when i had a mean attack of insomnia the dawn before we went to cavite: success is more often for the lucky than for the deserving. putek yan, di pa naman ako lucky. i don't even think i'm deserving most of the time. so what category would i fall under? bahala na. basta i am going to succeed, just wait.

ay wait lang. youth camp na ng yfc immaculat heart of mary parish chapter. it will be at this retreat house in marikina (ang ayos ng place, promise) on november 4-6. if you're interested, send smoke signals. joke. no just contact me or any other yfc ihmp parish member. you do have to be 12-21 though. ok? ok.

Posted by juliecious at 12:25 AM | ayos ah.

my personality defect

Sociopath You are 85% Rational, 42% Extroverted, 57% Brutal, and 71% Arrogant.

You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, thus making it easier to kill them. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you! To put it less negatively: 1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Hippie. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 79% on Rationality You scored higher than 42% on Extroversion You scored higher than 66% on Brutality You scored higher than 79% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

but i promise i'm a good person.

Posted by juliecious at 02:56 AM | ayos ah.