QUEENLY THOUGHTS.

regrets... regrets

i so regret not going to batangas. remember when i said "bawing bawi" on my last entry? not entirely true. hay. ang pangit ng feeling na hindi ka nakapunta!

ok, my day started with a mass and i was with Pam C (one of those happy batangas people). after the mass, she was looking at me funny. well it's not like i didn't expect it. i guess i truly deserve the "pinkamalakas mang-indian" award as gabo would often say about me. grabe. there it was. the start of my envy-filled day. i knew this was going to happen. i knew that my stupid decision will have its grave consequence in due time. they were laughing and sharing inside jokes and new terms and we couldn't relate! haha. abe, bries, cara and i felt really out of place so we went out of the place. hehe. corny. we went out, meaning sa may flag pole. dramatic nga eh. dun pa kami nagflag ceremony. feeling aping api. shusme, ang mga demong batangas people, came out to haunt us. then they told us about the ultimate miss-out. the drinking fest. not that i was planning to get intoxicated or tiddly (word of the day) at the least, but i just felt bad about not seeing IA go all out. wow. iba talaga ang peer pressure. hehe. Ia? the nice responsible Ia? the first honors receiving Ia? the innocent Ia? the CLC leader Ia? haha. she had her paolo to worry about and she totally drank to that. but the batangas people were kind enough to put all the action on video. sayang. cheers to pam s who once again saved everyone from personal fiscal crisis by buying the drinks. in fairness, may kamahalan yun noh. andami din niya. like, when i was pushing the cart, everyone i passed by was looking at me as if i was some juvenile delinquent. haha. and of course, you can never have enough drinks. bumili pa daw sila. hay. and cheers to JB who withstood all peer pressure and didn't take a single shot. wow. amazing self-control.

anyway, so ayon, masaya ang batangas at di ko naexperience. plus, i can't remember much of my sem-break because it was more for hibernation. which reminds me, hyperbeat concert. to go or not to go... not.

ah eto pang masaya. si rio, pag pasok ko ng classroom, ang salubong sa akin ay isang nakakapanghindikbalahibong "julie, hindi daw tayo gagraduate pag di natin nagawa yung IP". wow. great start bez. F-ing IP yan. nung una excited pa ako and i was really proud to be one of the students who got exempted from the normal IP, only to find out i was going to work on one for a whole year. you see, the honor section was removed but the subject it was unique with which is IP was retained and given to the qualifiers. shusme, talk about kunsumisyon. ang dami ko nang bad experiences sa IP na yan ah, from finding a topic to confronting a friggin hag from DOST. the only perk was that we were exempted from the chem exam. at ngayon, it's threatening to take away my graduating privileges? how mean. oh well. it's not going to be graded anymore naman so i guess we'll just have to do it and get it over with. di na siya graded dahil for last year pa yon so may grade na kami. nalate nga lang ang project. gurreat.

Posted by juliecious at 07:43 PM | ayos ah.

youth camp

nasiyahan naman ako sa youth camp. pero major

pagod na pagod na pagod ako

as in. umabsent pa ako to get some sleep (that i truly, truly need). ang sakit sa ulo!!! parang winar ang katawan ko.

Pain List

1. masakit ang ulo ko dahil wala akong tulog. feeling great kasi, so hindi kami natulog. pero at least natuto akong magpusoy dos. 'steeg. ang sarap ng feeling na may bago kang natutunan. ayos eh, sa youth camp ko pa natutunan. pero ang saya talaga. i used my poker skills. the one i googled for.Ü tapos nung mass na, napapapikit na ako sa sobrang antok. ang sakit ng ulo ko. pero ok lang sana kung masakit lang ang ulo ko eh. but nooooo. i had to be ugly too. wow waff talaga (yezzz... batangas word meaning => what a f**k*** face). diba nga ang lala na ng eyebags ko dahil sa nanay ko (it's effing hereditary, but i still love my mom), tapos nung wala pa akong tulog, major laki niya and sobrang itim. hay, and i had to share in that unfortunate state. sabog talaga. so ayon, sa sobrang antok ko, umabsent nalang ako today. at kumakain ako ng ultimate comfort food. soft batch cookies!!! wow. heaven na toh. one whole day of just eating and sleeping... i really needed that.

2. masakit ang paa ko. dahil inaral ko yung ginagawa sa paa... basta... ayon. ang tagal ko inaral at finally, natutunan ko na rin. wohoo. among those people who taught me before, only dimples succeeded after half an hour of a grueling session with my clinically uncoordinated feet.

3. masakit ang mga braso. it's probably because of my sleeping position. or because i'm dying of a rare bone cancer...

4. masakit ang tiyan ko. ewan. jebs ata. or post-menstrual dysmenorrhea. is there even such thing?

5. masakit ang loob ko. i feel so guilty about not attending our prosti-hunt. i suggested it pa naman.

i'm sooo sorry gabo. and cara. and the rest of the group.

like i said, wala na talaga akong energy. i just had to sleep. promise. pati na rin dun sa english meeting namiN! sobrang sorry JB and Pam S! promise, bawi ako next time. kahit ako pa pagawin niyo ng isang buong ARPS... hmmm... wait, no, i take it back. basta kahit mabigat ng task nalanag.Ü

at ano pa ba, may crush ako! finally, someone older. at siempre, dahil nga malas ako, may problem sa crush ko. he has a girlfriend. siyet. hehe. oh well. sanayan lang yan.Ü

pero ang saya ng youth camp. bonding kami ni chay eh. grabe, i really really like this girl. she's really nice to me. and she told me one big secret. that's big. thank you for the trust sis. i won't let you down. at oo nga pala... benta ang beauty ni sally mae... ayoko na bez... ibang lebel na yan. hihi. 30 colored pages? he must really be in to you.Ü

Posted by juliecious at 06:15 PM | 1 paid homage

quizzzzzzzziiiiizzzz....

wala akong magawa eh. so eto, lame-ass quiiizzziiizzz that probably don't mean anything but are fun to take anyway.

Take the quiz: "What kind of girl r u?"

hot
you must have the guys all over you girls must envy you you must be a cheerleader
Take the quiz: "What kind of beauty ARE YOU?"

PRETTY
yOUR JUST LIKE CUTE EXCEPT YOUR BETTER LOOKING
Take the quiz: "What is the best name that fit's you"

Alex
In one word your smart
Take the quiz: "How Vain Are You?"

Intensely Vain
You care what you look like to an almost obsessive extreme. Take a break once in a while, not everybody is judging you as harshly as you might think.
Take the quiz: "What angel are you?"

SkyAngel
you will as high as the sky TAKE ME WITH YOU
Take the quiz: "Which Disney Character Are You?"

Cinderella
You love fire and you love the cinder ashes by the fire. You care about others and you clean. You want to get out into the world and explore alot.
Take the quiz: "Which Greek god/goddess are you?"

Zeus
You are Zeus! Zeus was the supreme deity, King of the Gods.His wife was Hera, goddess of marriage, but he had hundreds of children with other women, mortal and immortal.He was made king of the gods when he rescued his siblings from there father Cronus who had consumed them as soon as there mother, Rhea, had given birth to them.But Rhea had hidden Zeus away until he could defeat his father.
Take the quiz: "What vampire would you be?"

Avengful Vampire of the City
You have been wronged so many ways. This as you see it, is your chance to set your anger free for once and all! Whomever dishonor or embarass you will have to pay for such a mistake with their life!
Take the quiz: "Which beautiful Sorceress are you?"

Lightening Sorceress
You depict the Lightening Sorceress! Controlling lightening and using it for weaponry is your main magic. The rain is your sanctuary and the thunder is your guide.
Take the quiz: "What kind of person were you in your past life?"

Suicidal Rocker
So your career...yeah that's a shame
Take the quiz: "What Mythical Creature Best Suites Your Personality?"

Griffin
Your are loyal and strong and you gaurd your treasure well. No one messes with you even though you are quite gentle. You have strong opinions and you don't let things people say hurt you. You are a good leader and people look up to you.
Take the quiz: "what egyptian major god r u?"

ISIS
YOU'RE ISIS THE MOTHER OF HORUS (the god of vengence) SHE'S THE GODDESS OF PROTECTION
Take the quiz: "In ancient greek mythology, who are you related to?"

Zeus
You're selfish and have all the powers. You're the leader.
Take the quiz: "Which Witch"

Prue
Lucky you
Take the quiz: "The Charmed Quiz"

You really are Charmed!
You know your stuff!

Posted by juliecious at 07:25 PM | ayos ah.

hmm... wala. walang title.

hmmm... i don't really feel anything different about today. siguro dahil hindi ako muslim at hindi ako apektado ng ramadan liban nalang dito sa kawalan ng pasok sa eskwela... so i guess i'll just write about things i wouldn't normally write about because i don't want to turn this blog into a philo paper. goodness.. tagal nang tapos ng philo pero umiiwas pa rin ako. grabe ah. major traumatic.

sooooo.... what good thoughts have i got for today? uhmm... i have none... my brain is corrupted by the crap from my large intestine that refuses to get excreted and decided to back up to my skull ... in short i am soooo constipated. anyway. that's highly irrelevant to the supposedly philosophical entry i'm about to write. ah alam ko na ang topic nito.

i am not deep. i am just shallow. putek noh. i cannot afford to be deep and serious because i'm in this crucial stage of adolescence where little things could result to an irreversible psychological damage to my person . do you think psychopaths were just born? well maybe. and maybe i'd turn out to be one if i keep on thinking that this world is out to get me. and how is that even possible? i'm in this world... how could it be out to get me? haha. word play. never mind.

see? whenever i try to be deep, i lose my trail of thought among mundane things that just come up ... hmmm... maybe i do have ADD... kasi dati, sabi ko sa teacher ko may ADD ako para paupuin ako sa gitna. hihi. oo na, the end does not justify the means. if i had a million pesos for every time i heard someone quote that, i'd be 10 million pesos richer. haha. kala mo kung gano karami eh.

so anyway... back to my seemingly futile attempt to be deep... i just realized i'm not sweet . hmm. see, i don't feel the need to show affection. i just don't. i guess i'll have to work on that and i few other things because i think i'm turning into a guy...---> very scary . that's why i painted my nails this foxy red color... hehe. labo. another irrelevant addition to this entry. pero di nga, i think i'm developing my masculine side more rapidly than my femine side . but really, is there a masculine and feminine side in a person? what if this theorem is just another devilishly ingenius strategy that sexists formulated to further segregate people according to their gender and sex-type them from birth? woah . that was hell deep. didn't sound like me at all.

i've been reading this psychology book (yeah, i know. nerdy. but i really, really enjoy studying human behavior. it's really interesting, i'll elaborate later) and i read that men feel the need to silence women and women feel the need to submit to that silencing. and girls want to be taken care of so they unconsciously pretend to be weak. i don't want to be one of them. if i can do something myself, i'd do it. i think this whole chivalry thing is more for the ego of men and not for the convenience of women . but i still believe that somewhere out there (in that distant, distant parallel universe ) there are still some guys who do nice stuff genuinely. hihi. joke lang friends. hindi ako bitter, ohay? so ayon. i've decided not to be that damsel in distress (i'm the queen ) stuck up in a tower waiting for prince charming to arrive to sweep me off my feet. sweeping is good though. go ahead, sweep me off my feet. really, i challenge you. haha. but in cases such as the day climb that we'll be having with the ateneo outdoors club, help and assistance in climbing is much much much welcome.

hmmm... so enough of this male bashing. baka mawalan pa ako ng ball date... mahirap na. haha.

Posted by juliecious at 06:39 PM | ayos ah.

jollibee chicken strips

hmmm... parang masarap yon ah.

WARNING: this entry contains offensive thoughts about someone. read at your own risk

anyway. putek. sana fair na. ayoko na ng english. shusme, madali lang naman ito kung tutuusin eh, kundi lang sobrang gago ng teacher namin... in what world was it normal and acceptable for a teacher to call a student's work lame??? i mean, whatever that kid is writing, she got from you. kahit di niya samin ginawa, nakakaasar pa rin. hay... then somehow, this hostility that is cooking up in everyone's mind and blog (ok, pati na nga YM status) will reach her...yeah, and then conflict will arise and everyone will start crying, of course, including her (yep, she always has to be the star) and she'd give us this amazing guilt trip and everyone will wind up feeling worse than before. goodness. di kita papatulan. i've been subject to lots and lots of guilt trips and i have managed to suck it up and not be swayed by other people's emotions (or pretentions). hay, and the worst part is, in the end, she'd expect us to say sorry. that we have to understand her because she's got lots of things to deal with. hello? please, wake up and get out of your little cave, you neanderthal freak. we all have problems, asking us to deal with your bipolar mood swings is soooo not fair. then as i've said, after this overly emotional, selective grudge digging that we girls call an "open-forum" everyone would get out of the classroom, feeling better, which means that we all think we got out of the dialogue victorious, that we did not submit to the other party's wants and demands... that we were not over-powered, that we were the ones who stood steadfastly for what she came in the discussion believing. gooohooodnesss... i admit i am guilty of this. i'd rather think that i made the other party rethink his/her principles than feel that i was subdued, that i was actually corrected by someone else. i hate to think that a person has the power to make me feel guilty of the whole situation. dear friends, that is why i hate open forums.

hay. sana fair na... ang ganda ng "charter" ng booth namin. i am soooo proud. booyeah. (JB's word)

Posted by juliecious at 08:43 PM | 5 paid homage

the FAIR issue

Ok. So this is the entry where I’m supposed to make a general review of the MC fair that was, and it was

great!!!

I love our booth, the

JAIL

booth. Feeling great kaming lahat. You know that feeling when you could just grab anyone you like by the hand (yeah, and getting that much-awaited first physical contact within a few seconds of spotting the “hunk” and throw them inside the jail, where you could guard them from any other “takers”? that could pretty much sum up the “agent” experience. I love love love our ID!!! I hate to brag, but ours is the greatest. Nyahaha. Yep yep! Thanks to the joint artistic forces of Anna Achacoso and Macy Iglesias!!! It’s like a police officer’s badge, complete with the plastic casing. Gurreaattt!!! I also love our jail, which we didn’t have much time to decorate because we did not have the materials when we were given time to fix everything… nevertheless, we had a fun time decorating it and putting that 4-1 oomph in our jail… we even had this electric “lovers’” chair and I made that thing for the head, which the first set of detainees ruined. Argh. And we had these belts tied to the jail walls, where people could be tied up so they look even more stupid. Cute. Speaking of cute, of course, we had cute guys jailed… lalo na si papa dom! Hihi. His real name’s angelo, but he looks like dominic ochoa, hence the nickname papa dom. As JB we would call him, “yung lalaking makinis ang mukha” was a jail staple because, well, he’s cute. Haha. I even pulled him out of jail to take his picture, explaining that, “kamukha mo si dominic ochoa, at dahil diyan, pipicturan ka namin”. Hehe. He’s only a sophomore that’s why we had the courage to do that to him. we were telling them how cute they were and how we want to have a soiree with them… hihi. Poor kids. They must’ve suffered great emotional damage.

Anyway, other cutie spottings include: 1. Mikko!!! OMG, Mikko Santos, whom we’ve been hearing a lot about from Clara was just soooo cute! He had the cutest smile! And when the sound system broke down, he kept on playing the drums even when he’s just so confused with what had happened. Hay. Grace under pressure is the cutest. 2. uhmm. Mikel Campos. Well, he may be overrated but he is cute, right? 3. Papa Dom’s friend. He’s tall. And he is cute. 4. si aramis! Nyahaha. Cuteness. JB, sabi ko sayo gwapo eh.

So I guess that’s it. next time nalang ulit. Thanks to all those who offered comments for my last entry. Thank you for making my case stronger.

Posted by juliecious at 08:38 PM | 5 paid homage

hi5!

yesssss.... may lumalaban na sa friendster at hindi myspace ang tinutukoy ko. i mean, kelan ba nagkalaban ang myspace sa friendster? hihi... ang sinasabi ko ay ang

hi5!

na sadyang kagiliwgiliw dahil may blog na (yesss... 500000000 points for that) ay may chat pa!!!!! (and that merits an infinite number of points). ultimate heaven talaga eh. pinagsama ang dalawang dahilan kung bakit ako laging nasa harap ng computer.

ang taktika ng hi5 ay napaka clever... see, once you join, you can easily send invites to all your ym friends. o diba? no more scouring for friends and inventing non-existent names para lang mahanap mo sila noh. so in my case, pagkajoin ko, nakainvite na ako ng 84 people (yeah boi, 84 friends ko sa ym!) teehee! (paolo d.'s laughing thing). tapos ang ganda pa ng colors. hindi nakakairita tulad ng monotonous blue (or is it gray? i really can't tell) ng friendster. hi5 has blues, yellows, purples and pinks!!!! gurreatt!

ui... i had one of those days (the days you'd wish to scratch off your biological calendar) today. grabeh. andami kong kinram!!! hay. sabi ko pa naman gusto ko magkaroon ng matataas na grades this quarter. but then again (pam c. accent), hindi maiiwasang magkaayaan kung san san. wala na nga akong pera, mababa pa grades ko. musta ka naman, 5/20 lang ako sa CL. CL! goohoodnesss. well anyway. lahat naman bwisit sa araw na ito eh, regardless of your class standing. si ia nga naiyak pa. sobrang stress siguro. hay. gawin na nga lang ng gawin and let's get all this over with. 46 academic days nalang mga bez, wala na tong lahat. then we could run off to places... beach!!!!

hay... major dismayado nga pala ako ngayon dahil hindi kami pinayagan sa climb. hayup na juliefer yan. patalo! di kami pinayagan!!! nakakaasar! i was soooo looking forward to the hike and that was the only thing that made me feel better about this hell week... tapos? tapos? sinira niya lahat ng plano ko! kasi ganito dapat yan, para feeling busy and important ako diba...

friday: CLC overnight pero matutulog ako kina tin para
saturday: 4 am punta kaming hike, after that we'd go to pam's brother's gig... hihi... ang saya sana noh? tapos tulog ako kina pam s. with clara and the others. hay. pataba session nanaman kami non.

so as you can see, ang ganda na ng weekend plans ko noh. di ka ba umuwi. hay. pero ano? wala na ang major event! wala na ang highlight of the week! ultimate shit. pero ayos lang. may covenant orientation naman kami sa saturday so di rin ako mababakante. hay... ang sarap ng feeling busy!

to all my pasaway YM friends who still hasn't accepted my hi5 invite, uhm, screw you. kidding. sumali na kayo! and to all my friends, please give me a testimonial! gagawan ko rin kayo. sobrang ganda pa. hehe. ohay? ohay.

Posted by juliecious at 08:13 PM | ayos ah.

Hello Kitty

ngayon ko lang lubusang naappreciate ang hello kitty... dahil pumunta ako sa sanrio website tapos sobrang daming magagandang stuff na hello kitty!!! may portable CD player na sobrang ganda ng color... may hair crimper na hello kitty yung mababakat sa buhok mo... may curling iron... may DVD player that stands vertically... may TV na DVD player... may TV lang... may parang mini-fridge na di mo mawari... basta ganon! ang ganda! grabe... i soooo want to have all of the above...

anyway... nasa bahay ni diane kanina si cara at magkachat kami. alam niyo kung anong ginagawa namin? hinahanap namin yung babae ni franz. yep, kaming dalawa, joint forces... kailangan talaga dahil di namin alam ang pangalan nung girl, mukha lang. pero walang nangyari. di namin nahanap. bad trip.

kanina rin we had our first meeting sa choral. grabe, i'm feeling the competitive vibe!!! gusto ko talaga manalo. ang oc ko pa nga dun sa list ng names eh... kailangan talaga OC ang attendance sheet. hay, ang saya saya talaga. sana manalo kami.

I do not believe in not expecting too much. dahil para sakin, there's no point in joining a battle if you don't believe that you're gonna win. at dahil diyan, magpapakahirapa ako sa choral dahil mananalo kami. that's the spirit! at yan din ang kayabangan. eh bakit ba.

anyway. tama na muna for today. at pamQ!! ano yung sa friendster na sinasabi mo? wala akong alam dun ah. sige next time.

Posted by juliecious at 07:35 PM | 3 paid homage